Different Side Of Love

How sad it is to not know wht love is. What do you think about love ? What do you say about this four letter word ? What comes up to your mind when you heard this word ?

Is it beautiful ? Is it happiness ? Or maybe you feel like butterflies flattering their wings inside your tummy ? OR is it disgust ... hatred .. revenge .. broken heart maybe ? Only you know ...

To me , love is BOTH . Sometimes I do feel like the world is mine when I'm in love. However, if I hear it at the wrong time ... only tears would fall down my cheeks ... telling me tht this love is not good enough ..

It feels great to have someone to love you. For girls especially, falling in love means they found someone tht they can cuddle up to & make funny & cute faces to. By finding the right guy, they will have happiness throughout their lives. Like a fairytale, " And they live happily ever after ... " Thts just it, there are no happily ever after for some girls in this part of world. Some girls found their prince charming at first sight, some ... found their shining armor after battling hundreds of witches.

For guys, well thts something so much different. To them, love is when they get to ' touch ' the softness of a maiden's skin ... to feel, to embrass, to kiss ... thts not love , boys. Tht is wht I called LUST of an animal ! Some guys only pretended to be nice, showering pretty girls with their beautiful, sweet lying voice. Promising the world in order to get wht they want, the taste of a maiden's virginity ! If you think thts wht love is all about, then hell is your place in the after world, gentlemen ... How sad, did you hear me ? How sad .. have you ever thought tht those girls you were toying with were hoping for your sweet love, for your protection, for your guidens, for you to accept them for who they are ! No ... you didn't thought about it .. because you're stupid .. damn fucking shit stupid !

Because of you, girls nowdays are willing to follow you around, show off their assets to you, give you money, kiss you when you asked them to, even willing to make love to you all day long if they have to just to fulfill you selfish needs ! And wht do they get ... your seed .. your babies .. In the end, only they have to be responsible for wht they did ! Not you mens, only us girls ...

SO gentlemens or may I dare say, stupid damn fucking shit mens who have no dignity, please stop wht you're doing. Treat the girls tht are good to you with care & love. If they love you, be grateful, because one day, the girl tht loves you might be the only person who will stand up for you ...

I Rather

I rather dissapoint other people than letting people dissapoint me. I will hold on to those words & keep it deep down in my sorrow little heart. It sounds selfish, cruel, dark .. and most of all full of hatred. But as I grew up, I realised tht I can't trust anyone, hoping tht they would keep me safe from this cold, harsh world of ours. Wht can those useless people do .. those pathetic, horrible, disgusting people ...

They knew nothing about me, & yet they still can say tht they know me. How foolish ! How stupid ! How damn you are ! You never did know me, you never care, you were never there, you were leaving me behind, you were crushing me, you were killing me with those pitiful lies ... did you ever thought tht I never needed you ?

I rather let you down, I rather leave you behind, I rather let you die in the hands of hatred ... because you never care, you never took the time to listen to my fading whispers ... In your big world, I'm just an invisible person ... a living walking shadow in your dirty old wall .. So why the hell would I save you when you're in my world ...

I rather walked away than leting myself fall into your cruel hands, I rather run for my life than letting you catch me in the act .. I won't let you dissapoint me .. I won't ...

2010 ! Such A Havoc Year !

Its not tht I'm not grateful but the thing is everything is topsy turvy now people ! I'm turning 16 this year & there's too much goin' on ! huh ! Dear junior readers, if u want to take science as your stream when you turn form 4, think 10 times or even forget it ! Its hard BUT if you really do think you can ace in it, then go for it my dear ! huhu, I just can't cope up with things right now. Recently my best friend just moved to another schl & I've been lonely since then. Hmm, even my love life is like a roller coster now. But I think thts alright, those things will be testing my patience. Well, this year I'm holding 3 important positions in my schl. RESPONSIBILITY is not for me ! aaaaaaaaaa ! However I just go for it.