The Many Faces Of Me

Like the title stated. In this blog, I will tell you what it's like to be me. To be the sweet & the cruel next door girl.Over the past few years in my life as a teen girl,I've done so many things just to get what I want in life. Money.Boys.Love. I've got it all. But at the same time I have to fight for all this ' stuff ' so I won't lose them to someone else. I hate it when the things I love & cherish fall in somebody else's hand.Like I said,to get all this,I had done so many things. Good things & also bad things. People never knew what I did. All they knew is that I'm just trying the hardest to fulfill my desires. And that's what makes it easier for me to do my ' job '. I can be as sweet as an angel but then again I can turn into the evil devil. My innocent face never fails me. People always says that I'm a goody to shoes. Well I'm not. I have taken so may risks in my life just to get all the things I want. Lie,cheat,anything & all you have to do is name it. But it was worth it. Still the guilt that I feel will never fade away. It's like blood. The blood keeps on flowing on and on. It never stops & because of that I always cry to make me feel better. With tears pouring down my cheeks,it feels like the tears are cleaning the blood. And for that I can feel good again. The blood maybe had been washed day by day but the smell & the stain of the guilt is still there haunting me. This is the many faces of me. As sweet & innocent I look, you can still be fooled by me. I'm here to say this because I know that you deserved to know the awful truth. It hurts. It always does. Trust me on that because someday you might do the same thing. But don't worry. This is something that will satiesfy you. This is what I called ' Guilty Pleassure ". Believe me. Just do what you want & get the things you need. Last words from me. Enjoy this guilt while you still can.

Deserted Love Of A Lady

The time comes when the sweet prince made up a stupid decision to leave his precious princess.Why must that day come ? Why must his lips spoke those unwanted words ? Why should his arms let go of that weak soul ? Will that princess survive without his love ? The princess couldn't lift her face to look at his prince.Over the years she gave her love to him,she never thought that the prince will leave her until that day.She asked him, " What did I do to deserve this my dear ? What was it that made you want to leave me here all alone ? Don't you love me ? ". The prince then turn over & look at the sad princess.He spoke, " You did nothing wrong.But I just can't feel the love anymore.I don't love you no more.So I guess I just have to leave & go find another princess to made love with.".With those reasons,the prince then go & left the princess.

Rainy Days Please Go Away

Rainy days.Always rain,rain,rain & again,Rain !.Never will it stop until that sun comes out from that gloomy sky.Ouh dear sun,why did you hide and let the rain come down to the earth ? What ? The cloud ask you to ? What did the cloud said to you ? Ouh ! The rain wants to come out from its tummy !Ouh now I see.Hmm.Dear cloud,why must you let the rain pour itself down here ?Ouh what's that? The rain want to?Ouh I see.Rain,rain,rain.You're just water.Yet when you come down here & brought your friends along which is Tunder & Lightning,you scared so many human who lives on earth.But no matter,eventhough you scared the humans yet you bring joy to some who were expecting your presence.Thank you god.Because You let the rain come down to this earth and water the plants.Thank you Allah.

Roses Of My Love

Through the past 2 years of being a teenager,I myself never got the chance to escape or run away from getting caught by the criminal called ' Love '.I admit it.I had been in love before.Four times & as I look back,I notice that there's something good about the guys that had been loving me for quite some time.Eventhough the relationships doesn't last that long but I keep praying that I won't lose this one guy that I'm in love with right now.He's nice,he's handsome,he's everything that a girl wants in a guy.I love him for who he is.For his imperfection.I never asked him to change his ways or anything because no matter what,my love for him will always be strong.But one thing in my mind though,why in the world did he chose me to be his girl ?Why me ?.Then I stop thinking about that stupid question because he said " Everything about you,Myra.I love everything about you & most important,I love you ".I close my eyes & broke a smile.A guy like him,I never imagine that he'll be mine until today.I'm so grateful to God.Dear Allah,what did I do to deserve him ?No matter what,I promise I'll take good care of his heart.I'm so thankful.Then again,I hope nothing will tear us apart.My dear Raffiq,I love you so much & always.Tell me what to do & I promise I'll try to fullfil whatever your heart desires.Iloveyousomuch ! Mark my words,don't ever take him away from me.Only God can do that & I'll pray that he'll be mine till the end.

The Pain That Was Here

Is this a nightmare ? Is this the part that I was trying to avoid all this time ? Why must it come back & haunt me again & again ?
I keep trying to open my eyes & deal with it with just one look.But who am I to stop it from coming & happening.Who am I to keep telling it to go away & don't come back ?
I'm not that strong to do so.Instead of running away from it,I decided to stand up to it & kill it with my bare hands.Standing here,getting ready for it to come & attack me,was like watching & waiting for death to come & hit me.It was terrifying.Eventhough I was scared,I know I had to face it.My eyes were closed & I kept hearing the horrible sound it's making.But then,I open my eyes slowly.It was coming right at me.Somehow I had the strength to looked at it & that's what happen.I just stared at it as if the it was shocked by my bravery to deal with it.Within the blink of an eye,it vanished just like that.I smiled.But I know it will come back sooner or later.In case you are wondering what was ' IT '.Well,it was the Pain.The pain that was here.

Monkey Family.My Source Of Happiness

The Monkey Family.Like the title stated,this "family" here is the source of my happiness.And now,I'm proud to say that I'm one of them.I really am.In this family,there's 8 people in it.First of all,of course me,Ameerah The Ikan Buntal.Then,Raffiq The Maybeline.Followed by Hasanah The Kelinting.Fareed The Durian Busuk.After that Sara The Galah.Don't forget Khiran The Men In Black.Also Nelly The Ikan Bilis and last but not least Farah The Kangkung.We created this family on 27th October 2008.We had fun & I really appreciate all the happy moments we had together.Eventhough now we're facing some problems of our own,I hope there's still hope for us to keep staying with each other.
I don't wanna lose this family's love.Like the title says,this family is the source of my happiness.To my dearest "family",I love you guys so much.Believe that.You guys can count on me to keep staying in this family of ours.This family reflects our love so read this words of mine...'When things get old.Don't lose the love'.

About This Young Girl

The name Ameerah was given to her as her birth name.She's been living in this world for almost 14 years now.People called her Myra for short.A very caring person and you can't deny the fact because that's what people said about her.Taking risks all the way up,she learns that life is not that easy.Life was never cruel but she learned that we made it that way.We made it cruel because we think it is.Eventhough she's been through all the obstacles,she is still not satisfied.She knows that there's more to life.Been there done that,she's done it all.Love life? Don't say she's never fall in love.Four times people.That's how profesional she is in this world call "LOVE".Ups & downs,she'd went through all of that with pain & sadness.Keeping the real thing isn't that easy.It never was.Over the past few years as a teenager,she learned that she can do anything she wants to but still there's limit to watch over.No matter what,she knows that she has to keep surviving in this world of madness or she'll die craving for the love that she needs.