The Many Faces Of Me

Like the title stated. In this blog, I will tell you what it's like to be me. To be the sweet & the cruel next door girl.Over the past few years in my life as a teen girl,I've done so many things just to get what I want in life. Money.Boys.Love. I've got it all. But at the same time I have to fight for all this ' stuff ' so I won't lose them to someone else. I hate it when the things I love & cherish fall in somebody else's hand.Like I said,to get all this,I had done so many things. Good things & also bad things. People never knew what I did. All they knew is that I'm just trying the hardest to fulfill my desires. And that's what makes it easier for me to do my ' job '. I can be as sweet as an angel but then again I can turn into the evil devil. My innocent face never fails me. People always says that I'm a goody to shoes. Well I'm not. I have taken so may risks in my life just to get all the things I want. Lie,cheat,anything & all you have to do is name it. But it was worth it. Still the guilt that I feel will never fade away. It's like blood. The blood keeps on flowing on and on. It never stops & because of that I always cry to make me feel better. With tears pouring down my cheeks,it feels like the tears are cleaning the blood. And for that I can feel good again. The blood maybe had been washed day by day but the smell & the stain of the guilt is still there haunting me. This is the many faces of me. As sweet & innocent I look, you can still be fooled by me. I'm here to say this because I know that you deserved to know the awful truth. It hurts. It always does. Trust me on that because someday you might do the same thing. But don't worry. This is something that will satiesfy you. This is what I called ' Guilty Pleassure ". Believe me. Just do what you want & get the things you need. Last words from me. Enjoy this guilt while you still can.