My Hand

My hand, that's the title for this blog. Every decision that I make lies in my hand. Good decisions, bad decisions, it's all mine & only I who will make the changes about it. It is not impossible that this hand of mine will rule the world one day, It is not impossible that this hand of mine will kill a person one day, and it is not impossible that this hand of mine will make a different in my life one day. However, I knew that whatever decision I made, I have thought about it clearly & I am aware of all the consequences that I might have to face some other time. Although I am scared that I might get into a big trouble because of what I have done.

No matter, it is my decisions, it is my hand. This hand has held so many grudges that it doesn't care to hold many more after this. This hand had been held by some worthy guys that it doesn't care to be hold by so many more. However, this hand will never let go of what it had been held for so long. It will never let go of what we called ' Love ' ...

I'm Sorry

I'm sorry, for I have committed the biggest mistake in my life. I'm sorry, for I have lost in this game that we called ' Love '. And I am truly sorry, for I have been hiding the truth from you since the day that you said you love me ...


It never occured to me that all this will happen by accident. I never thought that you will come into my life & make it wonderful for me to live in it. But I'm sorry, for I have done so many things that I never wanted to do & hid it from you ...

So many sorries I wanted to say, so many forgivenes I wanted to beg but so many time I failed to try ...
I don't know what to do, whether to tell you or keep my damn mouth shut ...
Still when I saw you smiling at my way, I knew I didn't have the heart to open up to you ...

I'm sorry my dear, I'm really sorry ...
No matter what happens, this love of ours will always stay strong ...
I promise you, I do love you ...
And nothing will change that even if one day ...
he comes to me and say ...
' iloveyou '